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||[Jun. 20th, 2009|10:24 am]
well, the boards are over and my head hurts and i feel numb. i think all the studying and stress got to me and i'm totally burnt out. i don't want to think for the rest of the weekend. i am afraid to think i did okay and jinx myself, but there is nothing i can do about it now except wait for my score....
after the exam a few of us went to a bar for lunch and drinks, well, they drank, lol. it was a nice place, playing good music and i had chicken curry and rice that was great. on the way home i treated myself to some chocolate cake from zaro's for the train ride. yummy.
and if my day wasn't stressful enough, i waited over 20 minutes to be picked up from the train after calling 2 HOURS before it was supposed to get it to let them know. 3 of us were going to grand central, so we got there early and i called once i knew what train i was going to get, and said WHEN IT WAS GETTING IN! 4:43 please pick me up. i was told, ok, no problem. i get off the train, and i have to pee, and oh, wait, no car! so i call my mom and ask who was coming to get me and why noone was here. well apparently my sister had left at like 4:25 to get me but was "going to put air in the tires on the way." ok, it takes 10 minutes to get to the station from my house. even if she took a while putting air in, she should have been there already. so i call her cell phone FOR OVER 10 MINUTES before she decides to pick up. she lies and says there was an accident and she is stuck but almost there. so she doesn't get to me until after 5. she tells me she has never put air in b4 and didn't know she was going to get me and blah blah blah. when i talked to my brother brian later he said she knew from when i called she was the one picking me up. if my mom wanted her to put air in the tires, she should have left sooner and if she did take too long, all she had to do was call me to let me know she was on her way but late. i wouldn't have been mad if that was the case. but instead, my phone calls are ignored and i'm left waiting at the station for 20 minutes. so she tried to say it took her 35 minutes to get from our house, get air in the tires, and then to the station. bull shit.
and then my mom was acting like i had no right to be angry. well, i just took one of the most stressful and important tests of my life, i'm mentally and physically exhausted, is it too much to ask to be picked up on time?
so yeah, i'm just planning on vegging today and trying not to think. i am going to order that bathing suit in black and hopefully it will get here before i leave for vacation. unfortunitely i have to go shopping in the next 2 weeks for summer clothes b/c i really don't have any. ugh, i hate clothes shopping. i need someone to go with me b/c my self esteem sucks and i get defeated really easy and would rather spend my money on books, music, and movies. shows where my priorities lie, lol.
ok, off to do nothing all day. hopefully....